It Passes Away

When I was a child 
I learned what the earth was
What can happen 
and can’t
I used that knowledge 
to learn what I had and did not have
what i could and could not do
my blessings and curses
as a human
in relation to everyone else

What i am
and what i am not

I yearned for completion
so I filled myself with
desires
heroes and idols:

star wars
radiohead
goedel escher bach
rebellious 
american 
individuality
higher consciousness
philip glass
counterculture
and science

But then I learned
that while those foundations
and the joy they bring
are real
the physical manifestations 
can never be merged with me
they’re vibrating cascading colors
my heroes are really my teachers

So my view of the earth 
and its systems 
must change

What I wanted
was always beside me

I turned them into shadows:

drug use
injured rebellion
chronic
oppressive
bitterness
illusion
terrified hedonism
empty noise
obsession

it all passes away
it passes away

it passes away
it passes away

it passes away